Wow… you are so rude!!

I want to speak to the manager… now!!

98aac7d163585ae59fabd3a87fdf45bcI eat in restaurants daily… if you saw my waistline you would realize I’m telling the truth. Some of the rudest people on earth eat out… and they wait until I’m hungry to hit my favorite places. At any given restaurant on any given day at any given table you will find them. The people who carry on loud conversations on cellphones. People that blow their noses in cloth napkins at the table. Kids that run around screaming. Angry jerks that yell at the waitress because the food isn’t right. People that don’t flush the toilet or better yet … pee all over it. See where I’m going with this? They really suck! Rude is rude…

Most of us are normal and sure, we have been rude on occasion. Fact is, I have a rude thought every 40 seconds, along with a snack idea. The difference is, I have learned through experience to keep my mouth shut! We encounter rude people every day of our life and even more so if you live in a tourist destination like Hollywood. On any given day, you’re forced to witness their rudeness and squeals as they race down my street 6f7e88d156263618e176b6f5925dc84dwith a cellphone camera snapping shots of anything and everything. But, my neighborhood is only a minor slice of life and in the real world they’re everywhere like sharks waiting to attack the next toddler that wanders to far from mom…… their rudeness is nothing more than an angry and weak substitution for strength.

Many of them, as kids, enjoyed entitled and spoiled lives. You’ve all seen them in stores sitting in their mom’s shopping cart screaming at the top of their lungs about how mean and stupid mom is because she won’t buy them a candy bar. Many moms will reluctantly give in, which then causes the child to feel justified in their actions and thus make the behavior a part of their character. A chocolate covered Ritalin bar would have been a better choice.

8ccc2c72570a1f7e9049ab420ae560e9This is the gospel according to Rob …. Rude people are seldom, if ever, sorry for their actions to them it would be a sign of weakness. They’re attitude is, “If I hurt your feelings, in any way, I just want you to know from the bottom of my heart that I don’t give a shit.” It breaks my heart to see a hard-working waitress being abused by rude and coarse customers who are trying to look all cool and superior to those around them. Fact is, their bloated narcissus attitude fails to make them appear intelligent, but look more like the losers that they are….

The greatest weapon a rude person has is their sarcasm. But if you ignore their sarcasm, or even chuckle at it….it may cause them to have a cerebral hernia resulting in ego paralysis. Remember….no matter how rudely anyone ever treats you, NEVER ever degrade yourself and squat to their level by treating them in the very same manner.

The best defense against the ignorant repertoire of a rude Nimrod, is to keep the exchange simple and to use short sentences. Always remember; they are the ones who feel you are being rude for talking while they are interrupting. So, remember to say…. “Oh, I’m sorry, did the middle of my sentence interrupt the start of yours?”

Finally, never accept rudeness from anyone. I have been rich and I have been poor … and I have seen rudeness in both socioeconomic levels. But I never tolerated it. Believe me … the only things in life that will ever continue are the things that you allow…. rudeness is not one I’m willing to accept. By saying nothing, you’re letting the rude jerk win…

This is my Journey … this is my life!

Rob Cantrell

Why can’t you love me as much as you love yourself?

I’ll be happy next year…

I spent years in a relationship that provided every luxury money could buy… remember the financial collapse that rocked America a few years ago? I don’t because it didn’t effect me. I continued driving expensive European cars, living in luxury homes and traveling around the world. In fact, I was able to take my son to 42 countries before he was in high school. Many would say I hit the lottery. I didn’t. I sold my soul for things I no longer have… if anyone has ever lived in a controlling narcissistic relationship they ask themselves some important questions. Namely, you wonder how the hell you got into this mess.  Why didn’t you see this coming?  What are you doing so wrong?  No matter how hard you try, it is never good enough.  Your life feels out of control.  Overwhelming.  Confusing.  Good at times and at others just dreadful.  You feel rejected, belittled, trapped, isolated.

You are married to a narcissist.  Life is all about their agenda, not yours.  He/she is wonderful in public, smiling, outgoing and congenial to everyone that comes near..  But with you at home the behavior is very different.

Their grandiose sense of entitlement causes big blowouts in your life.  There are debts.  Whatever you provide, it is not enough.  They cannot understand why there has to be restraint.  They are forever pushing you to make the impossible happen, because the impossible is what they deserves.

You cannot argue with them.  Whatever the issue is, you will be seen as spoiling their day. Everything going wrong is your fault.  You are familiar with verbal abuse and the low self-esteem that goes with it.

Narcissists can be horribly frustrating. Everyone probably knows one… people who are so wrapped up in themselves, so demanding and demeaning, that they leave no room for anyone else. Sounds like a horrible person.

Yet, there’s something enticing about narcissists that pulls you in. Perhaps it’s his or her self-entitlement or know-it-all, does-no-wrong outlook. You’ve always been one to subjugate your desires, anyway. So, though you hate to admit it, your narcissist’s confidence and cockiness may be (or used to be) a turn-on for you.  It’s amazing that your favorite narcissist can be both appealing and appalling.

If you’re not ready to toss your narcissist out of your life, you’d better learn how to deal with such a personality.

There are three distinctive phases to the relationship. 

1.  Pursuit:  At this stage he is doing everything in his power to wow you into his world.  He wants to impress you and impress you he does.  Nothing is too much trouble.  He can be spectacular in his attentions to you.  No wonder you got taken in!  Who wouldn’t?  But it is not because of what he sees in you, what he loves about you, the work you do or the values you have.  No; it is about him – how good you make him look, how you add to his prestige, how you make things happen for him, how he imagines he looks when he is with you.  The impress the socks off you stage ends abruptly once he feels he owns you.

2.  Transition:  This happens once you move in with him, or marry him, or have children.  All of a sudden, he perceives that he no longer needs to make an effort.  You have now crossed over into his world, his bubble.  You are now just an extension of himself.  And that all works just fine until you express any individuality, an original idea, or feelings of your own, not his.  This is enormously threatening to him. For him, it feels like abandonment and he must do everything in his power to get you back into his bubble.  The belittling, verbal abuse, angry assaults or silent treatment that follow leave you feeling shunned, negated, unseen, unheard, trivialized, confused, sad, lonely, trapped and desperate.

3.  Victimization:  Your behavior has changed.  You avoid sharing personal feelings and thoughts because you know your partner cannot handle it.  Intimacy is not happening in your relationship. There is no sex.  You are walking on eggshells.  As long as you manage to express approval and adulation, all is sweet.  But when you fail to do this, you are devalued and regarded with extreme suspicion.  You have become aware that your perception of reality is very different from his.  No matter how or to what length you spell out the reality of the situation, he ignores it if it does not accord with his sense of superiority.  He denies his problems.  He might deny his illnesses. He denies the mess he is creating in your life.  Subconsciously he is aware of what he is doing, but he projects it onto you.   So, his inability to create intimacy becomes a suspicion that you are flirting or having affairs with other people.  He is extremely jealous.  He is pitching his survival against yours. You have at this stage become a co-dependent, a willing carrier of all the blame he needs to cast upon you.

Being married to a narcissist is a rough ride.  The biggest problem is probably that you remember how wonderful it was in pursuit and keep wishing it could go back to that stage.  But it never will, not with you, anyway.  But, you can survive it and make it work for you.

Is it worth it?  We are talking about being married to people with a serious personality defect.  It is a life of self-denial to a large degree. Is it worth it?

The way I see it is, every person is fearfully and wonderfully made.  Every person is a masterpiece, a mystery, a beauty to explore.  Every person, in my opinion, is loveable and capable of loving. But it is a grace to love and live with a narcissist.

One of the key survival skills is recognizing the problem for what it is and not expecting the impossible from your partner.  You do need to express approval and adulation of him in every way you possibly can.  But you also need to express your belief in your own value and teach him to respect it.

Intimacy can be terrifying to him so you must undertake the responsibility of initiating it.  You have to know that he is not wanting to reject you; he is incapable of initiating something so utterly threatening to himself.  But he can be taught to please you.
It is not that he wants to hurt you or wants to belittle you.  He really does love you in his own way.  But you have to teach him to love you more. You have to stand up for yourself, insist that your interests and privacy are respected.
You have to love and value yourself enough to have meaningful friendships in which you can express and share your personal thoughts and feelings, hopes and longings.  Because you will never be able to do that with him.

The question is how much abuse are willing to take? If you can’t save the relationship … save yourself! I did and I have never regretted starting over with me as my top priority! Don’t waste your life on what will never change.

This is my journey… this is my life!

Rob Cantrell

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